What a relief!

No fear

No fear 350x350 What a relief!There is a lot going on in my life at the moment because I’m asking God a lot of questions. I’m asking Him to show me what He has planned and I’m getting those answers coming thick and fast.

Recently I’ve been getting some real wake up calls about my behavior. Things are being highlighted that have lain dormant for years and it feels as if my world is being turned upside down. I’m beginning to realize that this is all part and parcel of the next level that God is taking me to. He loves me too much to leave me with those issues and, seeing as I’ve surrendered and asked Him to do what only He can do – He’s doing it! It’s all part of the adventure of being a believer.

I had a weird dream the other night, which woke me up in the early hours of the morning. I record all of my dreams because I know that God talks to us through them. After I’d written it out, I went in search of some answers. I know that dream interpretation belongs to the Lord, so I prayed about it and looked on the net for people who are particularly gifted in dream interpretation from a Christian viewpoint.

I came across a website of a well known Prophet and as I was surfing through his site, my attention was drawn to a video. I clicked ‘play’ and settled back to watch the 30 min episode.

Almost immediately he started talking about something that happened to him and, as I watched, the tears just started to pour down my face. I couldn’t stop crying. What he said struck such a deep cord with me and resonated so strongly with what I have been experiencing, that I was totally convicted. I’ve learned that when this happens I need to just let the tears flow and ask the Holy Spirit to let me know what my part is to do, while He does what only He knows how to do.

The tears eventually dried and as I continued to watch, he then brought up an issue that I have seen in my own life for years. I knew that I was being shown how hurtful and detrimental this issue has been in not only my life, but also the lives of my family. I saw how the root of this behavior was based in deep fear and realized that the time had obviously come to get rid of it. I was being given an opportunity to face the fear and let the Holy Spirit help me to root it out of my life – once and for all.

Now what often happens to me is that I begin to feel despondent when the Lord highlights something in my life and I think thoughts like:

  • ‘How long have I been a Christian and I’m still not over this issue?’
  • ‘I’m never going to be good enough, no matter how hard I try, so I might as well just give up’

This ever happened to you? I know, right! It’s like all the voices of negativity and hopelessness all converge on your thinking at the same time, threatening to overwhelm you and keep you bound.

As I was sitting there thinking about what would need to be done in order to deal with this new revelation, and feeling rotten, I had a really hopeful thought.

I thought ‘Lisa, you must not let the negativity get you down. This has been a revelation given to you so that you can realize that without Me, you cannot do all that I’ve put in your heart to do. We are going to need to do it together, so come to Me and let Me help you.’

It was like a light bulb went on in my head and I realized that I had a choice to make. Which thought would I listen to? Which path would I take? Which way would I choose to go?

I literally stood up and made a decision. I knew that dealing with the fear would be painful, but I also know that when the Holy Spirit helps you to face something, He does it kindly and gently and it always has a good outcome. I said out loud

“Holy Spirit, I am so sorry for ignoring this issue for so long and for letting it hang around. I choose to let You help me to heal it. I completely surrender to Your help, wisdom, love and guidance. Do what only You can do and let me know what my part is”.

It was like a huge weight lifted off my shoulders and all the feelings of guilt and hopelessness left. Instantaneously. Make no mistake, the thoughts tried to come back again, but I wouldn’t let them.

I stood and reminded myself of all the verses I’d read in the Bible that tell me that God loves me, that He’s on my side, that He will finish the work in me that He started and all I need to do is to believe that he’ll keep His promise.

A new sense of strength coursed through me and as I ran my bath, I made up my mind to just take a deep breath and rest and let God do what only He can do. What a relief!

Thank You LORD!

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